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Dear GOD

Thanks GOD..  thank you so much that You have blessed me so much by grant me wisdom and also accompany me for all the while... i know that You never leave me alone.. i know that You always by my side when i need You.. when i need hug, You will give me warm.. when i cry, You will give me Your shoulder.. when i smile, You are more happier than me.. when i need comfort, You always there with me... LORD, i believe in this world, only You who know me very well... no one in the world know what i need most... only You, LORD who know my heart.. i surrender myself to You, LORD... i will carry all my burden to You.. You know that all my situation.. You know that i can't make it through without You... 

oh LORD, my GOD.. You are the only One who i can share all of my feelings and thoughts... no one will understand my feelings and thoughts... yes, i know i'm poor.. i know is it tough for me to live alone here.. i know everything will need money... and i just will know to take money from my family.. of course i know my family facing a lot of debts... but what can i do...? i just can do nothing.. i'm such a useless guy... do u think that i'll happy to borrow money from friend.? do u think i'm feel good to ask...? but what to do..? as long as i have pay it.. u think u're rich and u can say anything and act like u're the big one..? you are just nothing to me and i act like nothing not because i timid, is because i don't want to have argument with you.. i keep silents doesn't means you are the boss... i just don't want to fight with you.. i keep be patience is just because i know myself very well... LORD, You are our only Supplier.. You know what my family needs.. You know what is the best for my family.. please help my family, LORD...

LORD, i need You, LORD.. i always do... i never think to back to myself last time.. i have a hard time always in my life.. although i'm not the worst in the world.. but i do always have a tough time to pass through.. is it Your will for me..? if it is, LORD, i want to ask when will it end..? i'm too tired to carry on .. i'm too tired to walk in such path.. it is tough.. LORD, i know that You always bless me and always by my side to hold me up.. when i fall down, You bring me up.. when i'm thirst, You fill my cup... LORD, now, i'm dry.. my soul is weak.. i'm being attack by darkness.. every time i want to draw nearer to You, they pursue me farther.. i'm weak FATHER, please strengthen me.. lead me through.. Amen..

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New life...

Dear GOD

It's new year,2012, that i have to live through it by my final examination first... thanks GOD because You gave me past a great Christmas and new year... although sometimes i feel that i'm lonely, but i know that GOD, You always by my side... and thanks again that You, LORD had lead me through last year by blessing, protection, and trials... although the year 2011 fill with joyful, sadness and challenges, but i know all this are comes from You.. because You want to shape my life to become more and more like JESUS.. to become a warrior who fight for CHRIST... this year, i hope that i can draw closer to You, LORD.. please grant me strength and wisdom to stand firm in CHRIST and to fight for CHRIST... let nothing stop me from being get closer to You, LORD... protect me and my family as well... for You, LORD are almighty and creator of heaven and earth... let all glory and praises be to You.. GOD, teach me to humble myself, just like JESUS humble Himself... let Your HOLY SPIRIT fill me and be my teacher to guild me all the way... may Your will be done on earth as in heaven.. thank you, LORD... Amen...