should or shouldn't i stay..?

the question is.... still wondering.... and i now understand y all the highest rank "look" so good that his or her workers "look" as bad people... it used to be that the higher rank person order the lower rank to do all the bad things and let themselves not involve in everything that are bad... i dun think that I'm right... i know i have wrong also... but then..? u think u are the highest rank always right..? the way u act make me feel suck.... u just scare that no one can help right... and that's y u act such a way... if u do it like this, mean u just a coward... just appearance looks good, but inside, nothing.... always talk about the truth... but self making out all the lies... should i stay..? feel very disappointed.... i think i should take every opportunity to go.... what the matter of others opinion.? it is so important that u care about the name then the truth..? even know it is not the truth, but because some people "mouth", u scared..? how can u manage a thing..? and people are just so idiot... and why people so 8..? is there nothing that u need to do and just go to busy others business..? now i know that no one will can be trusted... and no one can be taken into consideration to be ask for help.... they will one push u to death and caver themselves... then let the "friends" to die.... i started to wonder and would like to move out from the entire "building"... it is a wrong place for me..? help people also wrong..? help u to settled your works also wrong..? just only because i didn't do the way u want, then I'm the one who should be blame..? is it too terrible..? have u ever think about my feeling..? even I'm sick, i go and do the things u order me to do... even I'm sick, i din go for doctor just because to finish the work... and that's u called as friend..? do everything must go according to your plan..? do your plan must be the best way to perform every works perfectly..? freedom..? justice..? opinion..? choices...? all also deceive and just outward appearance that lies.... sdk... kk.... the same.... y....? y do i have to face the same problems here..? is it i have to solve it until it won't come to meet me again..? I'm so tired.... would like to jump up.... and stop everything in just a few second...