Dear God,
Who can i speak to but to find You..? Who can i tell every unhappiness but to You..? Who can i find but You, Lord, when i'm weak and tired..? Lord, there's many roads and paths that in my life.. yet, You let me choose by myself.. Lord, please guild me and help me to choose the path that You want me to walk.. Lord, i am lost.. i'm totally lost... i don't know where am i know, Lord.. i don't know what should i do.. Lord, i do believe in You.. but it seems like i just alone here... i can't feel You, Lord.. yes, i do know that You are all around the world.. You are the Truth, the Way and the life and i should live by Faith and not by sight.. is it because my spiritual life not strong enough..? or just because i don't have enough faith..? why are the feeling of loneliness, unhappiness, sickness that fall on me..? Lord, have You forsaken me..? have You forgotten about me..? don't You care me anymore..? no matter it is true or not, Lord.. i would like to say thank you.. Amen..
That's me!!
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Monday, December 19, 2011
Words to GOD...
Dear God,
It is because i think too much or they really think like that..? i thought most of the family also wish to have all the members be at home.. for those who work outside and study outside, don't they miss them..? or just only they joke about it.? i felt down when they said "why do u come back".. it's totally a curse for me.. is there no place for me at home..? or is it i'm really not important at home..? sometimes i really very envy some of my friends that their parents call them regularly, chat with them, check how they are.. but it seems like totally different in my family.. i seldom get their calls.. even get it, they will only ask if i'm ok, have i pay the bill, have i pay the debt.. is it i really not important in their sight..? i really dun understand.. how tough life that i have here alone all the days... God, although i know that You are with me always.. but i do need someone who cares for me, chat with me, can have respond to me spontaneously.. i felt tired, Lord.. it is very tired to act like i'm nothing.. it is very tired to take care of everything alone.. even i'm in pain, i tell no one... my bone, my legs, my hands, my lungs and my throat... all in pain.. but who can i tell but You, Lord... however, Lord, i thank you for let me be in this kind of situation... i thank you that You granted me such a trial.. i thank you for guiding me through all the circumstances.. i thank you for Your blessing.. i thank you that You have gave me this family.. please bless my family, Lord with all they need.. AMEN...
It is because i think too much or they really think like that..? i thought most of the family also wish to have all the members be at home.. for those who work outside and study outside, don't they miss them..? or just only they joke about it.? i felt down when they said "why do u come back".. it's totally a curse for me.. is there no place for me at home..? or is it i'm really not important at home..? sometimes i really very envy some of my friends that their parents call them regularly, chat with them, check how they are.. but it seems like totally different in my family.. i seldom get their calls.. even get it, they will only ask if i'm ok, have i pay the bill, have i pay the debt.. is it i really not important in their sight..? i really dun understand.. how tough life that i have here alone all the days... God, although i know that You are with me always.. but i do need someone who cares for me, chat with me, can have respond to me spontaneously.. i felt tired, Lord.. it is very tired to act like i'm nothing.. it is very tired to take care of everything alone.. even i'm in pain, i tell no one... my bone, my legs, my hands, my lungs and my throat... all in pain.. but who can i tell but You, Lord... however, Lord, i thank you for let me be in this kind of situation... i thank you that You granted me such a trial.. i thank you for guiding me through all the circumstances.. i thank you for Your blessing.. i thank you that You have gave me this family.. please bless my family, Lord with all they need.. AMEN...
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