Finally can back to Sandakan for 1 week... quite happy because can be with my family... but I think will be bored also... because Sandakan don't have place to enjoy also... just got place for eat... hahaha.. need to eat as many as i can... cause I'm too thin already...
Don't know why, suddenly I felt so lonely... the feeling so hard to explain... just like I'm being deport far from anyone else... just like I'm alone in the world... although I know God will be with me always... but the feeling so depressing... feel so hard... feel so miserable... Did I really alone in the world that I am...? Do there anyone can answer me that I not...?
I just like I at behind the bar although I am not... but my coverage of life so small... just a few place... did i really this unfortunate that no one may understand what the things that i need... i only need a very little thing... CARE..... that's only what i need... family, friends..... somehow like just feel I'm so lonely although I've friends and family... everything seems like useless to me... a phone which didn't ring if i don't find people.... a computer will not pop up any contact if i don't find people... do i really that failure that no one will chat with me or there really nothing can chat with me..? I know I'm not the worst... others i don't know, i just know now I so lonely....
Do there really nothing that I do may get agreement from people..? It just like anything that i done was wrong... never get agreement from people... make me feel like I'm so useless.... or I'm just a coward that in everyone mouth..? Why there so many "why" in my life..? AH............!!!!!
hi, clf! vk here..haha..you're not alone! sometimes you might feel friends are away from you, but actually they are just behind you! only if you turn back and look for them..don't lose contact with your friends oh! a simple message will cheer up their day..:) take care..
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