Suddenly

what a suddenly.... damn lonely..... just feel the emptiness deep inside..... something that missing inside...... i know God is with me..... most friend also tell me.... i know God supply everything to me..... i know.... i believe... but what is missing....? is God leave me alone..? what do i missing..? do i rejected Him..? what the hack..... what the kind of this feeling..? everyone also said the same... God with me, God with me, God with me..... i know for a long time... no need repeat so many times.... i do read Bible everyday..... somehow i feel lonely too... are there is not my time yet..? somehow, i feel easily lost my patience.... although didn't hurt anyone... but i feel anger with something very easy..... just din mention it out and just put it inside my heart.... God with me.... God with me.... God with me.... everything about God.... i do believe He take care and conducting everything.... is there no topic that beside God..? can't use other alternative way to comfort me..? i too a normal human being.... only u guys need to care about..? no need care about my feeling..? i just wonder what is friends..? just selfish about themselves..... what the hack.... i also got my feeling ba... got anyone care about me...? sometimes think before u write ba.... dun think that i din read what u're writing there..... u din know what mean it is to a person.... i know we can't make the whole world like me.... but at least can u care about my feeling too...? dun be so childish la... what u speak need to be responsible de....
about the uni... what a group i at...? everything need to do my own..? even to help them finish the assignment..? wei, only u all need study, i no need de ah..? everything need me to search and type and edit..? all u just relax there and take the marks..? there's no free lunch in the world.... don't u ever think to help and finish the assignment quickly..? what the hack person u all.. me oledy so many assignment need to do in this semester.... u all just wan me do it all..?
God, i know recently i feel into many temptation... but please teach me how to resist the temptation and God, forgive my eagerness and everything i've done... do help me to win against the attack from the evil.... let Your Holy Spirit fill me and lead me... I know i do many things that not good in Your sight.... have mercy on me and teach me how to walk in the path of Christ... so that i may live more like Him each day.....