I'm back....

Finally i've back to a place at kk where i can only stay under a roof of other which i have limited freedom.... maybe some other ppl feel that i'm so xing fu coz have relatives here give me a place to stay..... cook for me to eat... but sometimes it is a way to control me.... sometimes i feel that is hard to me to manage my time... coz i can't always out for small group... or other program that church have... coz i've to stay at home to be a "good boy"..... well, i trying to become the "good boy" which they wan too... but then, i will lose my real self.... how then...? is really hard to live under other roof.... coz have to become who they wish me to become.... i really out of my mind.... wakakaka... just hope this will be end very very soon..... God, lead me through it.... thanks Lord God for the blessing that You have done for me.....