Memorable day...

Today although is not any of the big day... but it is a day that i am so embarrassing but is for serving the Lord my God... quite happy although so tired and so many mistake.... but it is a lesson to me... is it just very memorable day... hahaha..... but really really tired... not i feel that my legs and hands do not belong to me... i just can't control them easily.... i mean "they" din follow the instruction that i give them.... hahaha.... it is hard to believe that i will have this day..... i really din think that i got this day..... just never think about the possibility about it... hahaha... however, thanks God for leading, thanks Holy Spirit for guiding, and thanks Lord Jesus for accompany....

What the group..

What the hell is the group member doing....? everything also need me to prepare for them..? what the damn thing... u guys oledy big lo.... university level edy lo... what the ****ing lazy u're... damn it.... even presentation also need to invite then come out.. u think u're the boss meh..? i done everything without u guys pay me de leh... u think u guys is princess ah... haiz.... if just continue, i better change my group.... damn.... should not trust any malay ppl again.... shouldn't i..?

What the hack uni....

Damn to my uni admin... damn it damn it...... useless admin...... always changing the system.... now make me can't log in the voiss system.... then how can i know what the hack happening in uni.... really damn it... just wanna cheat student money.... fucking uni..... damn.... really really damn it....

My birthday...

The loneliness the birthday this year..... just at home only.... and need study pula..... just so coincident.... my aunty just the same day birthday..... hahaha... so can just celebrate birthday.... hahaha..... just can celebrate without telling them.... hahahaha.....

Thanks God.....

just happen in 10 minutes ago... Thanks God bless me... i'll remember this day forever..... almost.... just almost.... around 50cm only the distance..... phew... thanks God blessing....Thanks God saving.....

Suddenly

what a suddenly.... damn lonely..... just feel the emptiness deep inside..... something that missing inside...... i know God is with me..... most friend also tell me.... i know God supply everything to me..... i know.... i believe... but what is missing....? is God leave me alone..? what do i missing..? do i rejected Him..? what the hack..... what the kind of this feeling..? everyone also said the same... God with me, God with me, God with me..... i know for a long time... no need repeat so many times.... i do read Bible everyday..... somehow i feel lonely too... are there is not my time yet..? somehow, i feel easily lost my patience.... although didn't hurt anyone... but i feel anger with something very easy..... just din mention it out and just put it inside my heart.... God with me.... God with me.... God with me.... everything about God.... i do believe He take care and conducting everything.... is there no topic that beside God..? can't use other alternative way to comfort me..? i too a normal human being.... only u guys need to care about..? no need care about my feeling..? i just wonder what is friends..? just selfish about themselves..... what the hack.... i also got my feeling ba... got anyone care about me...? sometimes think before u write ba.... dun think that i din read what u're writing there..... u din know what mean it is to a person.... i know we can't make the whole world like me.... but at least can u care about my feeling too...? dun be so childish la... what u speak need to be responsible de....
about the uni... what a group i at...? everything need to do my own..? even to help them finish the assignment..? wei, only u all need study, i no need de ah..? everything need me to search and type and edit..? all u just relax there and take the marks..? there's no free lunch in the world.... don't u ever think to help and finish the assignment quickly..? what the hack person u all.. me oledy so many assignment need to do in this semester.... u all just wan me do it all..?
God, i know recently i feel into many temptation... but please teach me how to resist the temptation and God, forgive my eagerness and everything i've done... do help me to win against the attack from the evil.... let Your Holy Spirit fill me and lead me... I know i do many things that not good in Your sight.... have mercy on me and teach me how to walk in the path of Christ... so that i may live more like Him each day.....