Eyes drop inside my heart...

I'm so sad to hear that both my brothers are not that good.... and my dad also.... why people must go to "drink" then can feel better from facing problems...? is that only an excuse or actually he is an alcoholic.... from my mummy voice, i know she so tired to put up the whole family at her back.... why can't the guys give a help to carry the burden.... everyone must think that my family quite free coz no need support child to sch as I the only child who still study.... however, the real story is behind.... every family also got their own unspeakable story..... i just can't help even in any circumstances... i felt so sorry to my mum..... how come ppl go to work and my bros go to work but so big diferrent between them..... is there really need to use a lot of money for ppl who work..? if for food is okay... coz everyone also need food... but do there really need to spend it on those "drink" which is harm our health...? or they just wanna find a little while of happiness to fulfill self "loneliness" and show that he "available" in the world...... i also lonely... i also feel empty inside me.... but i didn't go to "drink" until lot of money have fall into the "rubbish bin".... how come others will know how to think as they step into the "world" and be mature and mature... but my bros become idiot...... don't they know how to obey their parents and make their parents live comfortably at the age of old... why can't they just think a little bit mature..... can't they think a little bit that may give some benefit to their parents..... i just feel that all the guys in my family are useless..... just only know how to take money... if dun give, try a way to steal..... how come the "world" of my family become like this...? chinese people said " 1st have family before kingdom"... don't they know that family members are very important... how cruel that they treat my mum like this.... don't they know the difficulties that mum facing... the circumstances that mum standing.... where's their brain.... their mind.... their heart.... do the wolf eat it....? mummy already old, body also weak... still need to work and raise the whole family expenses.... don't they already work and can earn money themselves.... they just a garbage... only know how to take money.... mummy already paid what she need to paid... but bros, is time for us to pay to mummy... and not take..... how come u two dun understand.... only now about the "girls" u have.... is that important than mummy..... God please hear your servant prayer.... I pray to You, my God.....