One week past....

So fast oledy past one week.... i really have a bored week and a sad week.... why said so....? actually I'm waiting saturday coming (10/10/09).... however when that day came, I'm totally depressed... just because I've make a mistake.... I trust a person who i shouldn't trust.... just because of this person, I can't enjoy a celebration.... I've miss a lot of enjoyable moments.... did i so "good" that always being deceived and being use as a fool...? I tired to angry someone... dun make me burn out.... i also dunno what will i do then.... although i know if everything put deep inside my heart will be very dangerous.... however, i just dunno how to release all the stress I'm facing here... last time i still can go to play basketball or keeping myself alone blowing sea wind so make myself silent down.... but here, without a car just like I'm a man without legs.... just feel so hard to live here.... when i get a car surely i will move out.... living in this room/house, make me feel uncomfortable.... because of many things i unlike... and it is out of my religious... i feel like doing everything also being destroy by "these" things..... feel very very uncomfortable..... Although I have faith in God... just feel like is i continue living here, they will try to make me away from the One who I always believe in... just give me a car....... all i need is a car now....