Why ME??

There's many things had happen recently which I find it personally. And by that reason, I always asked "why me??" 

Well, there's nothing much I can argue with. Because that is normal and out of my ability to handle it. What I can do is just face it thoroughly alone. There's nothing more I can do it. Just because I'm just a normal human.  

For such a long time that I didn't feel any feeling of what we call it as family. I always treat them as family member, care for them, but I just looked like an idiot to them. Hmmm... Should I continue to do such things? I'm a human, with flesh and blood. I also need someone to listen to me. Care fore me. But who is the one who always there for me? 

I am just a failure.. As employee, I only can serve and help my employer for a little problem.. As my a family member, I can do nothing much to help my family in such a limited ability that I have.. As friends, I'm just a failure.. Maybe I really not a good person to hang out maybe.. Have to be alone forever.. (T.T)

There's also disappointment to me when I saw my students doing their presentation. Of course, there are still students are good who performed their presentation very good. I'm happy for them but at the same time, I felt sad for those who are not very good.

The convocation for the second batch is just around the corner, but I felt that nothing much I have teach the students. Or they didn't learned anything that I had taught.??? Really don't know how to teach those who are not interested in English Language.. I know they are not those who are study type.. But still, English need to study by their own. I can't force them to study English if they don't want to. If they still don't want to try to speak in Language, they won't master it.. Who can I blame if their result are not good.? Me..? I have tried my best.. Still I not be able to help them.. Well, is my fault then... Maybe I'm just not suitable to become a TEACHER.... What is my purpose to live then?? I really don't know... Suppose that's all for now.. Bye...