Exam coming.....

Exam were coming.... but still dun have mood to study.... how..? need to pass also... but the subject that i take this semester so hard and i dun like it... coz all about history... haiz.... memorize always... me memory not good de la... how to memorize so many historical things wor....

so tired..... i need to find a place to move... and i need a car to replace my legs... at here without a car really hard to manage time well.... every planning also ruin because of some mistake... coz miss calculate the driver.... I really really really NEED a car here.... who can help me.....? WHO......?

Every time after study, need wait at least 30 minutes t0 1 hour... so waste the time.... can't go anywhere also.... coz scare suddenly the car come.... haiz..... Almighty God, when are You will answer my prayer...? until when do i need to learn from this lesson...? what should i learn from this lesson..? patience...? i know recently i not be very patience.... not as last time.... last time i feel that myself can be very patience in most of the things... but recently felt like i easily feel angry... however i let my "lei xing" control my temper... everything also put deep into my heart... din tell anyone... even my pastor, my friends and my family.... all i tell just the good side.... it is just like a "card stacking" which only show the positive side and hide the negative side....

i just like i am not myself... I've walked out from myself.... do i need to act like this..? in this realistic world really can not take off the mask and live..? why everyone must wearing the mask in their lives...? why everyone must calculate how to gain profit from others such a greedy move..? is there nothing can exchange if the profit they gain..? i still believe that God's loves may help all of us.... without His, we are nothing.... without Him, we won't be success....